Read To Me

Last night I enjoyed another installation of the Liars League NYC reading series. It’s a gloriously simple concept: writers submit their work according to a theme, the Liars curate the selections, and they’re read aloud by actors once a month at KGB Bar in the East Village. The room is small, so everyone there is listening closely; there’s little worry that loud talkers will interrupt. The bar staff knows how to serve drinks discreetly (they’re listening too!) and since all the actors and writers bring a posse, it’s good news for their nightly receipts. A few months ago I participated in one of the readings as an actor, which was a lovely experience. But honestly it was almost lovelier to attend as an audience member: how often do you get to sit on a bar stool with a G&T in your hand, with no responsibility other than listening? Sometimes it’s really nice to be read to.

Priorities

We had a hurricane in New York City a month ago. Thankfully it ignored our apartment. There was some howling, some lashing of rain against our windows, and meanwhile the husband and I remained cosily indoors, shamefully attired in loungewear, with our two cats draped over one surface or another, eating stockpiled stores of “freak out food.”

On the news, all the talk of collateral damage, of collecting valuables into a bag marked “GO!”, along with the attendant forced assessment of priorities made me think of a game I played when I was little, called BOAT. The game went like this: I pretended that my bed, which sat high on top of some drawers and a deep cabinet – a captain’s bed fittingly, although I didn’t call it that at the time – was a boat. It was leaving any minute for a long sea voyage. I would never see my home again and I had to grab those things that were most important to me as quickly as possible, so that I’d have them to use or bring me comfort on the journey. I say comfort because most of what I threw onto the “boat” was stuffed animals and dolls – no clothes, no toothbrush, not even an orange to fend off scurvy. I guess in my urgency to leave I forgot all about the practicalities of a long sea voyage, though in this particular one – which I played out over and over – the practicalities never came up. That’s because all I did on the boat once it was full, once the imaginary foghorn sounded and a powerful wind began pushing me out of the harbor (the boat had invisible sails), all I did was sit. Or rather, bury myself underneath all the teddies and dolls and pillows and sort of…snuggle. Sigh. Stare at the ceiling (my starry sky) and wait. I imagined drifting out to sea with all my most valued and loved toys – who I considered animate, intimate friends – safely aboard and wrapped up comfortably with me.

 What is most important?

 That was the whole game.